Prayer

I have asked God that people would understand me,

and they did not.

I have asked God for good luck and wealth,

and I stayed unhappy and poor.

I have asked many questions

just to realise that no answers are coming my way.

I went places and travelled the world,

I looked in caves and combed the hills.

I have asked people for their advice

I have listened to their words.

Nothing of that made my heart sing,

or my spirit to jump.

So I stopped for a while

and took a nap at the river bank.

I stood still and waited in the unbearable stilness,

where nothing would move or make a sound.

I was hopeless and wanted to leave swearing that nothing

but nothing ever worked for me.

But I stayed for a little longer, giving in into the dark,

the emptiness and nothingness which did not make sense.

I felt foolish and ridiculouse....

Just to realise that all that I believed was true.

And also that all the answers were deeper, much deeper than expected,

inside where my inner voice was talking to me about the stars

and mountains, and love and surrender. And I took my heart and opened it

to let all that I already knew to become my truth and my guide.